3.Carousel Of Descent
How you stand there so proud and beautiful
beside the black me,the sick and helpless one.
True gentle caring,natural and undemanding.
A childish wish you 'll see me through the night.
I 've seen them staring at me,even through the tears.
The world 's descending for a foolish boy in fear.
I keep all doors shut,I endure this bitter guilt.
I know they blame me but that 's one thing I can take,right!
I can take it!
I wish that every single tear I shed was felt and seen by you,
so you would understand how much you are and mean to me.
I am so weak and tired,drugged somehow and sinking,
fevered and uncared for,strangely not even self-pitied.
Thoughts spinning,swirling,carousel of misadaption,
a freak of nature on the ride of a lifetime,yes,that 's me.
The more I try to fight the deeper I 'm descending,
no use in trying crashing headfirst towards the ground.
It has to end somewhere,I 've known it would and here it is,
this carousel,descending,had its ' purpose and it was you.
How you stand there so proud and beautiful
beside the black me,the sick and helpless one.
True gentle caring,natural and undemanding.
A childish wish you 'll see me through it all.
I 've seen them staring at me,even through the tears.
The world 's descending for a foolish boy in fear.
I keep all doors shut,I endure this bitter guilt.
I know they blame me but that 's one thing I can take.
I can take it!
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